So I say thank you....(8)

2010
A year that literly changed my life ( but seams to have done nothing to my spelling:L)
I have had a rollercoster and a half this year
Full of ups and downs
And many of my friends went through on there rollercosters two but together we made the most wacky theam park ever!!
My family have gone through alot this year and we made it
Yes it has been tough
But if it's worth having it won't be easy
I have only celebrated 1 new year i'n my life and that was 2000
Many deaths have happend on this date for my family therefor not a happy time of year for us
Rip <3
New years resolution ?
Same as last year
To make a difference
But this time with a twist
This time I'm gonna make it
And make it with a difference
And I would like to send a message to a friend of mine
Who reads my blog but dousent follow
You no who u are
Thank you
You made 2010 for me
Without that 1 small moment
Everything would be difrent
Thank you

And thank you to my friends
For everything
And to my family
Thank you for being ..welll ..you :D

I would like to apolagise for not bloging i'n so long
I have been busy and nothing to prove it:L

For Christmas I got a new phone and clothes and money and books and stuffs >.<

And the nerves start again ...

The things that me and my friends do...

It was the last day of term i'n tt yesterday:(
So we had to celebrate Christmas tt style!!
So we went for a meal only 8 could go but it didn't matter we had a brill time:)
So I decided to make conversation ... A little difent
So I asked these questions
1) if u could be born i'n any era which one would u choose and why
2) sureget mothers .could u become/have a sereget mother ?
3) if u were the opasit gender for a day what would u do?
4) would u change ur gender?

So yeah I made conversation
Put ur ansers below!:D
In tt drama were finished blocking fame
In dance we have nearly finished choriagraffing fame and need to do another song yet!
Singing I has a solo line>.< we have gone over all of the songs>.<
I love them it gives me a feeling of belonging >.<
And also if I wasn't part of tt I would never have met my good friend autumn or preformed i'n the royal Albert hall
I gess I have alot to thank them for but if I'm honest I cba typing anymore about tt cus there not my only friends
I have my school friends
All unic i'n there own ways
Ether there poets ,singers,thinkers,religious or many more
They all hold some form of ...mojo?
They have all given me reasons to cry , laugh, jump for joy and much more
But I gess with out them I wouldn't b any good i'n drama because
U need to know them emotions to potray them
Without them I would have no one to help go through lines
Or make me more determine to prove them wrong
With the friends I have
Tt and school
I will shine like them stars i'n the night sky
And I will prove to people I am worth more than a glance

I love Christmas :)

The tree is up and shinning like stars i'n space
There's the snow from out side
The cheer is all about
And I know who my real mates are
And I know they won't go lieing straight to my face
I have something I need to say
But would u listen?
But would you care?
Or would u rather laugh?
I gess I best remain sighlent
For I'm at risk of losing everything

(8)So what I'm still a rock star I got my rock moves and I don't need you gess what ! I'm having more fun now that were done I'm gona show you tonigh

Yesterday was brill tbh
It had snowed here Friday so everywere looked brill
There was a new lad in theater train and I think he likes me:$
Shame he's not my type :L
Then i rushed home to change and get my mate a dousen red roses for her birthday
She loved them:)
And then a group of us went to watch harry potter 7
It was amaizing!!!!!
Then we went to pitzza express
Lol it was cool
Then it was home time
My auntie went into the hospital
Then went home:L false alarm
Then I walked cerys to the bus stop and got in about 7.47 I had been up sins 8 that morning so I was shattered and I had a 3 hour bath with a book:L
And pamperd myself in my fav lotions and potions:L
Then I started doing notes on welsh poems and then I got shattered:L so bed time for me:L
(8) you weren't there you never were
You want it all but that's not fair
I gave you life I gave my all
You weren't there
You let me fall(8)

(8) till I try I'll never know

After school today I went to revise with cerys:)
We had a realy good confo:)
And then I noticed something
I noticed that I honestly don't care what some people think of me
I mean ofcourse I care about some but others I'm thinking
And I care because ?
I mean come on!
I don't care what Jake thinks( he's a lad i'n my year I suppose some people call him popular or something like that but I think he's just very imtimanaiting ) or Ryan or even Morgan!
I also noticed I take my past experiances and let them affect my now experaiances
I have actualy been thinking alot today:)
(8) I think I'll try and defy gravity
(8) it's time to trust my instincts close my eyes and leave
That song I relate to alot at this moment:) it's defying gravity -wicked
Well I'm gona sleep now night

all ime low-break your little heart

Wide awake, my mistake
So predictable
You were fake, I was great
Nothing personal

I'm walking
Who's laughing now?
(Who's laughing, who's laughing now?)
I'm wasted, wasting time
You talk for hours
But you're wasting lines
A pretty face but the chase
Ain't worth the prize

I'm gonna break your little heart
Watch you take the fall
Laughing all the way to the hospital
'Cause there's nothing surgery can do
When I break your little heart in two
I'm gonna break your little heart in two

Party queen, cause a scene
So ridiculous
Little dress, maybe less
So conspicuous

You're falling
Who's crashing now?
(Who's crashing, who's crashing now?)
I'm wasted, wasting time
I'm moving on
But you're left behind
A pretty face with the chace
Ain't worth the price

I'm gonna break your little heart
Watch you take the fall
Laughing all the way to the hospital
'Cause there's nothing surgery can do
I'm gonna break your little heart
Show you to the door
Sew yourself shut
Now you're begging for more
'Cause there's nothing surgery can do
When I break your little heart in two

Don't be so sentimental, no
This is love is accidental, so
Give it up
This was never meant to be
More than a memory for you

I'm gonna break your little heart
Watch you take the fall
Laughing all the way to the hospital
'Cause there's nothing surgery can do
(When I break your little heart in two)
I'm gonna break your little heart
Show you to the door
Sew yourself shut
Now you're begging for more
'Cause there's nothing surgery can do
When I break your little heart in two


cus i feel them lyrics are directed at me=/
u no what im not sorry for anything i did
bu 1 thing i regret?
letting you get so close to me
for letting u hurt me over and over again
i am sick of this hurt im never gona let anyone hurt me again like this .period.
im in my grannys been here sins friday
seen my auntie shes ok
in tt were doing fame! im the parts of roger and betty:L
im sorry im so sentimental and "waisted your time"
well blog soon
hannah bannana x

Shittt!

My auntie went to hospital this morning because of pains and contractions!
It's way to early for the baby to come!
So they stoped the contractions thank god
Last night I went to my local colege's open evening
And I found this course
I am in love with it
Now here's my down side
I need a C in english and I can't spell
And the audition is really hard to get in:/
Ie last year 89 students auditioned 29 got in
It's the only thing I want to do!
And it says in a fancy way
I have to b fit so no more shit for me
I just want to make it so bad :(
Yesterday it was the fist time I ever thought fuck the world and it's shit I'm going to b happy
So for an hour I was
Then I fell asleep:L
Wish list:-
To get that c in English
To be happy
To pass the audition ( which entaitels a song solo a monolog and a dance solo)
And for that prince/princess to come sweep me off my feet
To lose wait
And that my auntie will b ok

Uch!

I don't think u see my said!
It's not a subject I'm very open to
I am a nervous wreak !
I never said don't ever speek to them!
I was just not ready for you to say it now
A few weeks sure but it's the subject why I'm like this!
I can't explain how I feel
But I just really wish u hadn't
I'm sorry

School should start at 12 end at 1 and have an hour lunch brake!

PARTY!PARTY PARTY PARTY !!!!!!
gawd I love partys !
My mate Molly got sooooo pissed it was hilarious!!!!
I hate revising :(
Love you!

I'm not going anywere

U better bet on it (U)

Lyrics to Bet On It :
Everybody's always talking at me
Everybody's trying to get in my head
I wanna listen to my own heart talking
I need to count on myself instead

Chorus:
Did you ever?
Zac:
Loose yourself to get what you want
Chorus:
Did you ever?
Zac:
Get on a ride and wanna get off
Chorus:
Did you ever?
Zac:
Push away the ones you should've held close
Did you ever let go?
Did you ever not know?

I'm not gonna stop, that's who I am
I'll give it all I got, that is my plan
Will I find what I lost?
You know you can
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it
(Bet on me)
I wanna make it right, that is the way
To turn my life around, today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say?
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it

How will I know if there's a path worth taking?
Should I question every move I make?
With all I’ve lost my heart is breaking
I don't wanna make the same mistake

Chorus:
Did you ever?
Zac:
Doubt your dream will ever come true
Chorus:
Did you ever?
Zac:
Blame the world and never blame you
Chorus: I will never
Zac:
Try to live a lie again
I don't wanna win this game if I can't play it my way

I'm not gonna stop, that's who I am
(Who I am)
I'll give it all I got, that is my plan
(That's my plan)
Will I find what I lost?
You know you can
(You know you can)
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on me

I wanna make it right, that is the way
To turn my life around, today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it

Oh,Hold up
Give me room to think
Bring it on down
Gotta work on my swing
Gotta do my own thing
Hold up

It's no good at all
To see yourself and not recognize your face
Out on my own, it's such a scary place

The answers are all inside of me
All I gotta do is believe

I'm not gonna stop
Not gonna stop 'til I get my shot
That's who I am, that is my plan
Will I end up on top?
You can bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it
You can bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it

I wanna make it right, that is the way
To turn my life around, today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it

Yeah I no it's hsm but so what!
I gess I just thought u woul b there for me
Just thought u would never
All theses new things are rushing in to quickly!
I need that someone who I can rely on who won't go any were
I gess it's selfish of me
But when u said that
It hurt
Alot
(8) just another manic Monday
Wish it was sunday
That's my fun day

Bobbles:L

Bobbles
Trees
And looking like a Christmas fanatic:L <3

:@:@

:@
Lol tt was good
Happy ending from mika <3
Drama:L my part is a skitsafrenic stoner :L
Then I went with kirsty to help her buy stuff for her party and I have decide to go as...
Dora the explora! Slut version:L

What a week end

Well Friday I had an awsom confo with a few mates
Saterday I had tt in the morn
Met up with mates in town
Then had a tt meal<3
Sunday
I had an hour bike ride
Then met up with sofiah
I tought her how to ride a bike
She tought me how to ballroom dance
Sheep r homophobic
And I tast like tea...:L
Best weekend <3

The end of an eara

Many of my mates at tt left today :(
It's so sad :( but to day in dance we discussed what we dancing next and were doing cell block tango!!!!!
Aaaaaa
And I'm going to b velma mckelly !!!
So exsited <3

Let me scream and shout

Hey let me scream and shout
I don't care who here's
I love you
I love you
I love you
I don't no how to prove it
But I'm worken on it
I love u
Let me scream and shout !
<3

Birthday:D

So it's my birthday 2 moz >.< i feel incredibly lucky for my next year of life
:L
" do u want to hug it out"

I could b ur girlfriend (8)

Theatertrain <3
the show is in2 weeks aaaaaa nervouse face
I can't belive I had Cerys in-between my legs and sofiah on my other side:L
Creased was an awsom time haha Cerys and my dancing >.<
London was awsom exsept for the 4.15 wake up :L
I am shatterd
I received an email this morning
It made me smile and wonder what was going throu there head
I am a sentimental fool and wonder every day do u think of me?
Do u ever wish I was different ?
Wish I never let u know how I feel?
Do u wish that i never met u so u wouldn't have to feel?
Space bound by emanem ( I can't spell)
The lyrics in the beginning <3

Knowing the truth dousent always mean it's easier
Sometimes it makes things worse
It hurst more than lies
It sometimes tells u how u could have saved something before it was torn
.........
How would u explain happyness
How would u explain to a child how a rainbow is made but still keep the magic
I gess my life lacks that magic <\3

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So what have I done?
I have read
I have been Interneting
I have creased
I have realized
I have been to town
I have bumped into sofiah
I have fallen asleep with a book on my face
I have biked 16+ miles
I have......
Ermmm...
That's it :L

but if I only say one thing it would be
cherish what u have while u have it because u never know when it's going to go

I had a dream that made me think and I don't understand it so if any one could interpet it I would be gratefully

I was siting in a bar having a coctail and this man came up to me dressed as one of the girls from Chicago and he said " don't stop" and he diapeard . And then this woman came up to me and slaped me . She was tall thin blonde and beautiful . Then she went . I finnished my drink and left in confusion from all that happend then I was on a sandy beach and I could hear singing . I think it was French I couldn't understand :/ and then I walked into the sea fully dressed and stood on a rock : S and then I woke up

so that was my dream

Well Better get ready for going to my aunites in prestatyn now I might blog while I'm there :) bye xxxxxx

Tommy samuels

Town yesterday with catrin
what am epic girl
I think I should never have chocolate lick when I go bk to school
cus it's soooo nommy I wouldn't stop eating it
i'm going to stay at my aunties at the 20th and weekend :D

I need to sort out my life!
From
my looks
who is my mates and who's just out to hurt me
I need 2 do homework
get some sort of life gole
I need. To sort my life out!!!!!

For some reason my life is like a tv sope
pritictable
boring
and blown over preportions

well buggering off to have a potato cake nommmmmm xx

(8) and truth be tould I miss you

Ok I'm constantly lissening to this 1 song but it's epic
tie called dangerous
I don't no who by it's sung but it's an awsom song
I really miss my auntie l ( Helen )
I never see her any more
mam sees her all the time and she tould me to go away for abit so she can be with her sister
but when truth be tould
my auntie means a hell of alot to me
she's pregant with a baby boy so that means it's the first lad in are family for 60 yrs ( grandad)
and it also means I won't see her very offten
less than I see her now !!
She's planing some bonding time at some point in this month
wich I'm looking forward to
corrin called me
she can half talk :L
but was an epic confo
she is now spiderman :L
I had a free book ages ago caled " the vampire is just not that into you"
I read it yesterday :L it's an epic book
it's like a how to get date and end a vampire relaitionship
it's sooooooooooo funny :L
I had a long confo with catrin
we have always been mates but throu out year 10 we have been closer
she is truly epic
well I better go viset my homework see what needs doing and maybe just maybe do some :L
bye x

Finally!!!! Blog works again!!!

Right blogger wasn't worken 4 me so I haven't bloged
I slept at bethans and we played on sims and we had a pillow and hammer fight with he brother
haha marshmallow feeling :L
it was An epic 2 days
I cleaned my room . I no this cleaning thing seams ok with music:L
I went to my grannys
went to see calender girls was amaizing !!!
I named my pines Jerry :L
got sorta rejected but it's cool
bethan got msn!!! FINALY!!
Had my iPod taken off me :(
got it bk :L
my auntie Helen is coming 4 dinner in 10 mins but she will arive late..... Naturely:L
and I no I don't say this offten enoff but really
I still need u . I don't think my life would be right with out u by my side as a mate :) u tell me when I do something stupid and keep me on track ..... Most of the time :L but what ever happens in my life I will always need you there Evan if it's to tell me"what the hell ! Edward is still a stupid " but what I'm trying to say is don't go any were cus I still need u
right it's official I'm way to sentimental
gtg bye x

16-17

16

I went to town with corrin and Nadia
omg what a day:L:L
we went to belvue and that Chinese man was there and yeah I ran with him cus I'm cool
he can't sleek much English but we found out his name is Connor and he's training for the marethon and he gose to glindwr
cus I'm cool :L
I had some poping candy!!!! Omg amaizing stuff :L:L
Me and Nadia waved corrin off and I ran after the bus waving :L:L
me and Nadia and a heart to heart
that seems it really

17

Mum woke me up at 1.30 grrrrr
I was enjoing sleep
I'm aloud to sleep at bethans 2moz
it means alot I gess coming from my folks
from when I came out to them they trust me
and it means alot
got to have my room clean b4 I go

U have killed me lirycs

Pasolini is me
´Accattone´ you´ll be
I entered nothing and nothing entered me
´Til you came with the key
And you did your best but

As I live and breathe
You have killed me
You have killed me
Yes I walk around somehow
But you have killed me
You have killed me

Piazza Cavour, what´s my life for?

Visconti is me
Magnani you´ll never be
I entered nothing and nothing entered me
´Til you came with the key
And you did your best but

As I live and breathe
You have killed me
You have killed me
Yes, I walk around somehow
But you have killed me
You have killed me

Who am I that I come to be here?..

As I live and breathe
You have killed me
You have killed me
Yes I walk around somehow
But you have killed me
You have killed me

And there is no point saying this again
There is no point saying this again
But I forgive you, I forgive you
Always I do forgive you

Days 14 and 15

Day 14
I went to town with cerys
we went in2 all the charity shops 2 giggle at the stuff it was sooo funny
and then we went to the one were my cousin works
it was nice to see her
I use 2 spent every summer and half term and then last yr we didn't and it was like grate to see her
then we met up with sofiah
did some more shoping
then cerys got some nommy cookies
then cerys got a bus home and me and sofiah walked home and then we walked otis
we disided I'm most probably going to get killed cus of my romantic soppy fool side of me :L
btw sofiah loved that quote!!!
"friendship is love without it's wings"

day15
I started out with a lazy day a looonnnggg bath
yhen dad draged me out to a gardening senter :(
we got some garden stuff (Y)
then we went home
we went to asda I got the next imortal book ( next dark vision books)
we had pitzza
nommm
I stayed up late yapen to this girl <3


Sorry for not blogging ta xxxx

Day 13

I got my alarm right 2day :L
I went in shorts top and tights cus I'm cool
I was frezzing like!
We had go to egals medow and the fier alarm went off
we sat down on the floor
and I saw Joe!!!!
We had a right giggle
tbf I miss him in tt cus it's just not the same =\
then we went to the band stand
and gaby and sofiah were continuing there Ginger counting
we went 2 mcdonalds and gaby and sofiah were playing this game
then gaby got a lift home and me an sofiah walked home
I nearly threw up :(
I yapped to Micheal cerys gaby and Nadia
so I gtg meet cerys now bye xx

12 days of summer *•*

I got up late cus my alarm didn't go off ( stupid alarm)
I met up with Nadia
we found a dieing butterfly and Nadia tried to nurse it to life
and we placed it in a good place 2 die
outside hmv
we bumped in2 Aaron and gaby
then we went to belvue and sat in quite sexual:L
but we had the deepest confo ever
than gaby came and joined us
and she got freeked a little by how we were sitting :L
we went to poundland and got a spiderman rubber ring and a ben10ball :L
and we said bye to gaby and we tould bethan we were in menera :L
bethan b baisicly made Nadia walk to fairways
yeah we walked so far and had a deep confo
and then when I got home
I had many a confo on msn
and I have planed for 2moz town with gaby and sofiah
I'm going now xxxxxxxxxx

11!!!!!! >.~

I didn't do much I went and cleaned
all my DVDs and vidioes sorted out
all my books
all my stuff sorted
I no it's not like me what so ever
I planed to go to town 2 times one with Nadia and one with cerys
I viseted my grannys and my auntie was there
it was nice to see her
I'm realy nervous for her
she's pregnant and has had many a miscarige
I'm just scared she will lose the baby :(
that was my day 11 :L very boring indeed

Day 10

I got up to go see eclips it was amaizing !!!!!!!!
Loved it
still a Edward fan >.<
on the way I lost £10
and I'm skint at the moment so it was like
fuck shit shit fuck
then sofiah called me and asked me to go to her house but I was in town
I seen my cousin Laura
I seen Nadia Laura and catrin
I got home and thought about everything and nothing
I went to my grannys and my auntie Helen was there so we had a good giggle
my auntie is 20 weeks pregnant and smoken
she's lost a few babys b4
and she won't stop smoken
I worry every day
and for a change I watched silent witness
I never watched it befor it was ok
well I'm going now cus this is maken me feel low for some reason "/
bye xxxx

Day 9

Well I slept over night in my grannys
I got up at 7:45!!! Shows how devoted I am to my wifes :L
I got into town at 10 and Nadia and catrin and me spent £15 on junk food :L
we went to belvue and watched zaholo and Benjamin play tenis
:L
then we went to the work out bit and sat on them things u are ment to lift up :L
we had a good old natter
then this Chinese man started doing sit ups
I went to join him oh everyone had turned into silent giggling :L
evan the Chinese man!! :L
then we got Nadia some hair die
and then Walked catrin home
then me and Nadia went on the park by spar
I had a really good smile :)
and then we walked so far then we split
then kfc >.<
look Mickey mouse face------>. •.•
I think I have a full blown crush on me heels :)
night y'all XXXXXXXX xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

day 8 :)

well i got up and i had a quick bath
then i went to grannys
and i have been tould i have the charm of the irish :L
i went 2 the sheropadiast with granny
and i been reading
and yappen 2 sofiah
and lisening 2 this 1 song over and over again love it
its Avril Lavigne -Alice
im not sure why but i connect with this song so here's the lyrics

Tripping out, spinning around,
I'm underground, I fell down
yeah, I fell down

I'm freaking out
Where am I now?
Upside down
And I can't stop it now

Can't stop me now
Oooh I, I'll get by
I, I'll survive

When the world's crashing down
when I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I, I won't cry

I found myself in wonderland
Get back on my feet again
Is this real?
Is this pretend?
I'll take a stand until the end

I, I'll get by
I, I'll survive

When the world's crashing down
when I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I, I won't cry
I, I'll get by
I, I'll survive

When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I, I won't cry

so yeah
i shall let ya no what i do with the rest of my day latter :)

Day 7 of hannah's summer

Well I got up I had cheese on tost nommmmmm
I watched flowers in the attic <3
what a film !!!
It's a bit old in make up tecneeks but hey it's about 30 years old!!
I honestly loved it <3
that main lad christifer( jeb) is nommy
then I got dressed
I had a makeup disaster
I got some nommy duck eggs from granny they r so nommm
we had egg chips and peas <3
then I watched the whole serise of pride and predajest
tWas amaizing !!!
Mr darsy <3
what a charicter
then we took the dog for a walk
omg I have never seen so many rabbits in my life!!!
Meg had a feild day with them all :L
she didn't catch any but she ran after them all :L
I had a confo with Steven , catrin and nadia
my high heels<3
I'm going into town on tuseday to have a giggle with nadia XD
well chaw for naw xxxx

Day 6

I got up at 8.30
and realised I don't have theatertrain
nooooooooo :(
then I went and got ready for town with bethan
we had a fab time
we went to marubeys nomm
then got bethan a USB
and I got a load of suger
we went to libery
and read this book about mental illnasses :L
oh how it was amusing
we bumped into alot of people
we had a muffin and a bottle of water in gregs
I put my name down for a job in Sayers
I'm exsited about that
I am still upset
but I realised last night
life is short to care about my emotions
I have desided I'm not going to care how I feel anymore
cus this emotion makes me eat shit
and I'm fed up of it
i'm just fed up of feeling
see ya

Later day 5

Well I didn't go to my nanas
insted I read on the decking in shorts
I love reading
I had a few messages of sofiah
then this one message that made me feel like a black hole was sucking me in and all the good things in life
all my happy good emotions teared from there roots and only leaving me with the words of the text and me
she dumped me
through text!
She knows it's in my opinion the worst way to dump some one
i was in the garden with my folks
my hardest acting chalenge
not showing I was hurt
all I wanted to no was
why throu text?
why then?
what did I do wrong ?
Did I show my feelings to much ?
Did I make u feel unhappy?
Well I'm going now
tell me to brake a leg for my acting for the rest of the day it's going to be hard ;'(:'(:'(:'(

Day 5 in a world of insanity

I got up and had a few cups of coffie
then I had a text from sofiah
all this week when I have had a message from her or an email it made me smile
just knowing she's thinking about me :)
I'm a soppy old fool
I played on sims
I think I might go to nanas in a bit
tell ya later what happens in my little bubble :)

Day 4

Well on day 4 I desided I was becoming a chef for the day >.<
I went to the shop to get some stuff and got drenched!!
Stupid rain
now I made all by my self from scratch
a huge chocolate cake with chocolate butter cream in the middle
and
2 normal cakes with chocolate bits in them
nommmmmmn
I bernt my finger geting them out of the oven :(
I really missed sofiah while having a slice of the one with chocolate bits in it cus it reminded me of a day out when we had a box of cookies and a bag of prawn crackers and yeah I miss her :(
then I borrowed a film from my grannys
pirates of the carabian something black perl
it was ok I'm not a big pirate of carabian fan
that was about 3:00 in the morning
all in all day 4 was good :)

Day 3

Well I had a bath and then walked to town
I arived early so I went in to waterstones
there was this creepy old man looking at the manga books
I love manga and anime but this man was just creepy!
Then I met jam outside mcdonalds
and it poorreedd down!!
I was socked!!
We went to hmv and we met Sam and codie
and we had such a good day!
So many pics!!
We bumped in2 nadia and corin to and I had an awsom hug of nadia :)
I gess I'm boring
I gess I need to get my emotions in line
well I'm going bye x

Day 2

Right I shal skip the boring I woke up shizz
I cryed for no reason at all , it was odd
I hate it when that happens
then the counsil came around to check if there was espestos in r walls
I wached the persuit of happyness
what a film :')
then I had some YouTube time
then joined tumbbler
i didn't like it so I left :L
then my mum came in the room
and we talked about music
then she said so u like paramore , would you like ticckets for your birthday ?
I went into ultrasonic :L
she said I could have 2 ticckets one for me and a mate
so I thought bethan :)
god with the rain I couldn't get signal to phone her 2 see if she wanted to come
but I got to her in the end :)
she was like
AAAAAA
her mum amuzes me honestly :L
so yes Im going with her to see paramore on the 10 of November
I can't wait >.<
then I borrowed my naboure the last book in the twilight saga and she's asked me if I want to go see eclips with her
well of course I said yes !!
And she borrowed me 3 books
davinch code ( yano what I mean)
angles and demonds
and then the third one :L
I'm now stalked up with books for the summer and it's lovely floods of rain :L
then I made plans for town 2moz with Sam codie and jam
it's going to b epic!!!
And me and mum r becoming closer which is nice
and I had a message of sofiah wich made me smile
why do I miss her so much it's only been a few days ?
And a text of bethan that made me smile
thanks bethan :)
miss you sofiah
damn you rain :@
byeeeeeeeeeeree XXXXXXX

The end of the first day

AAAAAAAAAA
:'( I hate this bit
this girl I'm mates with tould me she realy liked me but she new I was taken
this sucks I hate having to say sorry
I hate saying in any form of way
I'm not interested sorry go away
how ever nice I say it , it fucks me up in side I always feel so bad and I don't no witch side is worse
hers or mine
then I made a triffle
it was sooooo tasty
then after I made that I went bk online and me and the girl were good and it was if nothing had happend then she started to cry
I asked her what was up she said an ex boyfriend giving her jip
I new she was telling the truth at this point it was about 1am maybe 2am
I couldn't think what to say
I felt so bad
but an up note is I'm meeting jam codie and Sam in town Wednesday :)
I'm still missing sofiah and hope she's ok
bye :( xx

Day 1 in the summer of hannah :)

So I had a looonnggg sleep this morning
well I had no reason to be up early
and then I thought about sofiah and how much I miss her from her dazzling eyes to the sweet sound of her voice
and then I had a confo with Sam . She puzzles me I don't no what to make of her she suraly nows how to make me giggle :)
then I wore my new check shirt , green vest , boyfriend jeans and cat boots I sort of looked like a cow girl in a way :L
then I walked to my Nans it's 3miles away and in my boots it was very painful :(
so I spent all day there and had the most lovely meal
phesant casarole and new potatos
nommmm
and then my cousin laura and her boyfriend Joe
and now I'm boring you with my life
when I left my nana made me take £5.00 of her as pocet money for the week wich was nice but I don't like taken money of her but cus I don't see her often and she dousent spend loads on me like my two other cousins she gave me the £5
and now I'm going to yap to Sam again
speek to you latter
miss you sofiah
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

My summer starts now XD

Well I thought I have time to blog now so I thought I shall tell you lot what I have been doing every day of my summer :)
if you get bored you don't have to read :)

Annwyl sofiah

Your text !
Look u no how I role I wouldn't do that! And u no it
I will have but not that way ! I will go to town and have fun with mates but never ever that way !!
I miss you babe <3
I wish I was with you
loves ya xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
<3

And I started to wonder were did it all start to find out that nothing can capture a heart like a melodey can (8)

Don't think u can gess but I feel musicalish >.<
some suprises are worth waiting for :)
it's official I Hannah davies am a babe magnet!!
I can explan
I have a gf , two ppl who fancy the pants off me and they don't no me :S and this gril who is like raaa I fancy u she dousent fit into the other bit cus she's funny ( in a haha way) like that:L and I have another girl questioning her sexuality
so yes I never new my life would turn out like this
I had imagend if I was lucky I'd have a lad who liked me and we would buy a cottage and live r lives like musicals
but it turned out a bit difrent it seems :L
any ho
I'm going to miss you :( <3
summer ppl!! With more rain (Y)
year 10 has gone waaaaayyyy to quick for me it's not right
it's the last theatertrain of the term 2moz :'[ going to miss the place it gives me my weekly dosige of musical theaterness and the closest I get to living my life like a musical!!
God I have said this a few times alredy but realy realy realy want to live my life like a musical :L
well I'm shatterd now and missing her <3 night y'all
xxxx<3xxxxxx

:}

im sorry at dinner time i was just so not me
i felt so presured then i just became angery
im sooo sorry
love <3
im wrighting a song at mo and im strugling with lirycs but i got this bit :

to say i love you is so easy exspesialy when its true
baby dont go anywere cus i need u
without your smile i cry
without your touch i crumble inside
without your love im not worth exsisting cus baby you are my all my everything
i love you

gtg now laves u all
xxxxxx

trees

what a day :$:$
school was shit and it was r english teachers last day:[ we all want her 2 stay cus we hate mr jones
after school <3
i felt soooo much more confident
i dont no why
it was odd
i sooo wasnt u expecting u to tell me that
that tree was sweet and quiet and again fet confident
i dont think she could tell :L
grr connect 4!!again!!
i have been so soppy but comfterble
i loved it <3<3
oh dear mate
im sorry man i seysly am
well chow for now xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

:]:]XDXDXD :']

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY XD
im so friggin happy man
life dousent get get better :)
is a little worried but other wise life is awsom and if i didnt have that stupid welsh speaking exam on monday i would say MONDAY <3
exams=shit
lots of loving
bannana
xx
(8) please dont play with me my papper heart will bleed(8)

:$

i dont no wether 2 b jumpig for joy or hide

I'm a fool ..

Conect 4 I officialy hate u!!
Blogger finaly working on iPod yay!!
What did that mean?
Why did u need to here me say it ? Why
iPod was fucked up was on like a majoure zoom but thanks to david tis fixed >.<
thanks laura for head phones ( evanthou u don't have blog )

stealing this off gaby

Write a letter to these people:


Day 1 — Your Best Friend
whenever i need you your there. while i smile u notes. when i cry ur there comforting me honestly i wouldnt be who i am now if it wasnt for you .love you man <3

Day 2 — Your Crush
well hello sexy ;p i wish i could tell u how i feel .your smart funny beautiful and just make me smile your amizing i love you so much <3<3

Day 3 — Your parents
i know you have had a few shockes resently and i know u wernt expecting them bbut i truly happy thank u for the upbringing u gave me and the love and suport in my life love u xx

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
well hello steven :}
i know ur not my real brother but im so glad i have u i trust u with my life. yes u can b a prick but i love ya all the same <3

Day 5 — Your dreams
dreams dont be so odd and tell me stright up what u want me to know its so fustraiting when i dont no what u want 2 tell me but also thank u for the amaizing dreams :) x

Day 6 — A stranger
hey im a hannah i can be shy but i can also be amaizingly annoying (aparently :l i like to call it happy ) well i hope we can be good mates :)

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA:) thanks for the good times they truly made me so happy and i never lied through out ar relationship ad glad we are still talken now :) xx

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
steven (again:L) ur just awsom but please please reply to "hows u? " and "wubu2" in difrent replyes ! :L laves u

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
dream mate <3
hurry up ! i cant wait to meet you ! i hope u are as good as your all cracked up 2 be <3

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
please to reply to my messages i miss you
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
great nana
i miss are jokes ,the cups and sausers,i know its been 8 yrs but i miss you

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
ASHLIE MARY FUCKING WILLIAMS!!
I HATE U ! U RUINED EVERYTHING I HOPE YOU DIE A SLOW AND PAINFULL DEATH U BITCH!

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
please :'[

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
im so upset i didnt mean what i said i miss you

Day 15 — The person you miss the most
u know who u are <3<3<3

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
peppi and samantha i miss you so frigging much im gessing your not coming this yr and really going 2 miss you :( i cant wait 2 see you ! love you me ladies <3

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
jade hey im so glad were friends agin and i hope u have a nice holiday :) dont steal my chips :L:L xx

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
to everyone
want to swap ?

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
what ?

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
miss you :( i wish i could hold you in my arms and nevr let go cus i still remeber your sent and miss you ! i wish it never ended like that u basterd ! u know what i spent a fortune on ice cream because of you!! screw you!

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
im so sorry cus u looked so nice and now it turns out your a bitch go jump of a clife!

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
i want to but i cant cus u wont talk to me :'( so sorry

Day 23 — The last person you kissed
erm yeah hey thanks and wtf was that text ment to mean !

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
:$:$::$:$:$ thanks <3

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
im sooo sorry and just know im hear if u need some1 to talk to, some1 to lissen or just a sholder to cry on .im hear :)

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
so glad u kept to that promis :) so much fun ;p

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
tonya wow 1)fit much 2) so friendly 3) wish i got your msn addy :(

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
every1
thanks :)

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
dear crush
i love you

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
dont look so ugly look prittyer! i know u can do it :)




tbh toddlers are so amusing :)
bye 4 now xxxx

Theatertrain. What a place ;)

Tbh I love tt it makes me sooooooooo happy and the ppl there are so warm and nice I just love it there ,
big brother!!
Shabby
nomnomnom;)
well see ya later xxx

Theatertrain. What a place ;)

Tbh I love tt it makes me sooooooooo happy and the ppl there are so warm and nice I just love it there ,
big brother!!
Shabby
nomnomnom;)
well see ya later xxx

Blogger being stupid

Dear...AAAAAA

ermmmmm

hi bethan me ffiseg revision =creased

butterfly

mmm

silently braking apart (sofiah no picing!)

sofiah wanted some 1 to blog so ye
" I've learned that the dashing young knight on his Snow White steed who was going to ride into my life and sweep me off my feet...has apparently gotten lost in the forest."
first exam 2 day aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i was fine until some one started questioning me !

thanks david

life is what every1 gets but some have it harder

fuck life tis crap

i might blog later with something interesting
bye
x

(>'')>it will never happen <("<).

Sorry I haven't bloged in a while
1) if I don't want to talk I'm not going to!! Get that in ur heads now

hannah quote time:-
"did you go away and run away
because you new you could take my breath away
and you would brake my heart?
because I DONT CARE
were ever I am as long as I have you in my arms to hold me safe from the demonds around
I still don't care
I love you!"
(8) I'm pretty sure you have a new girlfriend it's not as if I don't like you it just makes me sad whenever I see it (8)

I hate the welsh corridor alarm!! It hurts my ears
got to dash
byeeeee xx

My loop, my fear , my destany

Stressing over everything-> not doing any work -> loss of sleep stressing over the fact I have done nothing -> fall to sleep -> stressing over everything -> not doing any work->loss of sleep stressing over the fact I have done nothing .......

And so the loop gose on
I fear the worst if I don't get out of this loop soon
and my destany ( well I thought the 3 things 2 gether sounded cool :) )
see ya I got to get reddy 4 school
xx

Have I got news for u...

Nope I haven't :L
today I been thinking alot about life
it's perks
it's downs
it's blechi- ness
all in all my life is amaizing !!
I have mates that would support me 100% the way in my disisioms
I have family who love me
I have some form of talent (I think )
and I'm starting to like my self :) ( I can prove that by I wore shorts a low cut top and a shirt that was linger than my shorts!!! Old me wouldn't dare were that!!)
I see things about life I never saw befor
and maby I just love my life
yes I know i have shit times but dousent every1?
I been trying to think of ways to make my blog more acsesible to people who don't know me :) failing me thinks
and a big hug for everyone who had an exam today :)
bethan tbf ur amaizing LOVE U!!!
Well I'm going to sleep now school in the morn ( uch!!)
nights xxxxx

It's a new start :)

I have been in a odd mood last few days and sorry to anyone that I been non-hannaherish to :)
"astro cat" "drafft"" sesils"" non-unicorn day"
also caled "aristrocrat""geiraff""special""non-uniform day"
cus me and gaby are cool in welsh
cemeg with sofiah cus my bubble was touching you :L
I went for a meal Friday night and I got mistaken for waitress :L o well i thouht I looked like a busnes woman :L
I went to see sound of music in venu Cymru EPIC on a stage XD
I'm proude of myself I walked 4.5miles out of my own free will :)
"u can't hate me i'm to loveable" :L
bethan u will get that after seeing S.O.M
I might buy some shoes I seen they were dolly shoes funkey ones with an edge to them and argued with me earlier bout how I thought my legs are horrid and my belly is huge and I don't like how u look and she (whilst we were arguing over my thoughts) called me beautiful :$
I think there's something some mistical force that makes me blush at anything romantic grr I hate blushing
well byee sorry I hadn't bloged in a while
byeeee xxxxxx

(8) it must have been love, but it's over now

well ye tis over wv toby
theatertrain =creased
me-"ok if i have 2 have kids im having a gay boy who im sending 2 balle"
kirsty-"hannah i know we were ment 2 think bout are parts in depth but i dont think the sexuality of your children counts"
*next week at tt*
me-"weres my gay boy ?"*
*every 1 creses"
i think that its time i grew up ,and do things i never thought id do
mam has gone 2 turkey 2 day for a week so me and dad have thoe house 2 ourselfs
omg i look epic my knee socks pink and black striped ones , my bluse check skirt and neon tink top with my convers i look epic
chaw for now xxxx

hafydd

well what a day!!!
i tould my folks im bi
i went 2 school
stressed alot
toby hurt me,confused me,all round aaaaaaaaaaaaa
a big discusion with my dad bigest heart to heart ever !
stil not 100% what he thinks
toby says she wants me bk
now my brain is pulp !!
id like 2 thank (insert the name of my christian folower with myspace that she dousent use that offten that loves church and all that shizz)i was amazed somone els read my boring life exsept my mates .so yeah thank u david u mean everything 2 me and thank u every1 for my texts and suport love ya all!!
so i say byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeexx

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HAVE POLOS!!!:L:L
school has been ok i gess wasnt as bad as i had been dreding well i still have tons of course work and every class has said ARAAHOLIADAU
o well thoughts of my magick bunny have helped me get through :$
SHE GESSED!! you could have tould me sooner was not fair
pe 2moz SAVE MEEEE well i hope we get 2 swap groups
things i have ether said or in my story:-
"Ever paranoied kiss, every little touch, every seacret glance GOD I LOVE YOU !!! "
"i avoided eyecontact so i let out my heart"
" i love you"
bug what post?
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeexxx

be proud of me....

i have done it guys i tould my auntie shes chufft it tould her and we had the bigest heart to heart ever!!!

magick bunny: u should b proud of me because i did it i went a day with out it :) and the fact i tould my auntie all about u and she loves u for the way u make me feel she said "hannah i can tell u love her just by the way u talk bout her and i like her to just for the way she makes u smile" and i forgot 2 say I LOVE YOU!!!!

dafydd: i ow u a big thank u because with out u i would still b sitting im my pit of misserie thinking hmmm what would it b like 2 tell my auntie u gave me confidense in myself to get up and do it :D thank you dafydd

bug :with out your suport i would still b hidding my emotions and would never have tould most of the people who no about me and with out that boost to tell other people i wouldnt have tould my auntie thank you !!!!

buzz:just being here to talk to when i dindnt no wich way was up and wich way was down and thanks for suporting THANKS :D

i need 2 thank all my mates today for there suport and way they have been there for me just evan to lissen 2 me it gave me that boost 2 day to tell my auntie and help me start out on my new page thank u xxxxxxx
"when life gets toghe i get togher "
(8) i have confidense in sunshine,i have confidense in rain ,i have confidense that spring will come againg because i have confindense in you i have confidense im ME (8)
(8)sun sun will come out tomorrow bet your bottom doler that tomorrow there be sun(8)
"life gouse on we just have to try and keep up "

I LOVE YOU !!!!!

byeeeeeeeeeee x

i seen this question thing thought id have a go

When was your last kiss?
i cant remeber (thats bad )erm not within the las 4 days atleast memory of a fish

Last person you told a secret to?
dafydd or le ginger


Who was the last person(s) you hung out with?
erm le ginger i think

When was the last time you really laughed?
i did for a bit today

Who was the last person you cried in front of?
me cus i was doing my eyeliner (silly me hehe) other wise i cry infront of no 1

Who was the last person you hugged?
my granny cus im epic

Who are your best friends?
i have tons they no who they r

Is there a person of the opposite sex that means a lot to you?
yes my brother and dafydd :) well most of the males in my life mean alot 2 me

What do you hear right now?
Sixx: A.M. - Pray for Me

Do you want to start over with anyone?
id like 2 with any 1 i have argued with

If you were in the hospital, would the last person you kissed visit you?
well i hope so cus tobys ment 2 b dating me

Do you miss someone?
toby <3

Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point that isn't around now?
yes no questions

Where's your phone right now?
dead next 1 me

Did the last person you kiss have a tattoo?
nope unless u call doodles on ya hand with pen tattoos :]

Have you hugged anyone in the last 72 hours?
yep i love hugs

Do you like waking up and having new text messages?
yes XD ones that say "i cant wait 2 see you today love you hannah xxx" them texts <3

Will tomorrow be a good day?
yes toby and me are finally meating up :)

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
earlyer on :@ i will punch him one day

Are you the same as you were at the beginning of 2008?
hell no im waaaaaaaaaaaaay difrent

If you married the last person that texted you, what would your last name be?
wouldnt u like 2 no ;P

Were you single on your last birthday?
Yep

Are you jealous of someone right now?
yep but who im jealous of u will never no

Can you commit to one person?
yes i dont roll any other way

If you woke up next to the last person you texted, what would you say?
well lets say id be brightred and then think hmmm how did i get here

How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had in 2010?
1

Are you satisfied with your life right now?
sure i gess

What is something you like to do when you're down?
lisen 2 some music ,chocolate,a drink of hot choc, and hope a mate is online to talk

Can you whistle?
yes i can

What are your initials?
HLD

How do you feel about yourself as a person?
I hate me

What is something that you're looking forward to?
tomorrow "Hug-where 2 hearts are wraped up in arms "

Whens the last time you cried?
not long ago

Do you prefer to take your showers at night or in the morning?
i take a bath in the morning 2 wake up :)

What was the reason behind why you last cried?
some one i thought who woud never hurt me actually hurt me by being a nob!

Is there someone you could spend every minute with and be happy?
erm if u count my mates as one person then yep XD

Can you honestly say that looks don't matter?
in other ppl ? nope not atall.in myself? god i wish i looked like some 1 els

Who did you instant message last?
rhys i think or dafydd

Is there anyone who doesn't like you for no apparent reason?
erm i think they hate me cus of my opinion of them :)

Have you had your heart broken?
erm yfallau

Have you ever been with anyone and thought “I want to be with this person forever”?
Yep

Have you ever dated someone older then you?
Yes.now hes my brother:)

Tell me what’s on your mind?
if i shaved my hair off i could get rid of it and have a wig :) but what would toby think ? if i died how much pain would i go throu ? where the hell did my lager go? o well yay 2moz cant wait XD

What do you do when you have a bad day?
think,chocolet,hot choc,internet for music and quotes

Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
yes many

Do you say sorry first?
most times i gess.

Have you ever held hands with the driver while they were driving?
no

Something you’re happy about?
TOBY <3<3

Do you wish you never dated someone you dated?
yes no detaels

Is it usually easy to make you smile?
depends on how much of a mood im in

Marriage in your future?
maby

Are you afraid of commitment?
Never

Have you ever been in a perfect relationship?
is there such a thing?

How did you get your last bruise?
i erm fell over my own 2 feet :$ dancing badly

Have you ever liked someone older than you?
yes ended badly

Who’s in your profile picture with you?
on this? its not evan of me

What are you doing tomorrow?
get reddy look stunning (well as stunning as i get)meat toby go round town ,to r medow<3 homework when i get home and finnish blushing hehe

Ever broke a bone?
nope

Last time you had pizza?
saterday went 2 pitzza hut with dad and ten bought lost boys and sweeny tod on dvd

How many days until your next birthday?
work it out 4 yaself

What surprised you today?
what a nob my brother could b

Is your hair naturally curly or straight?
curly but frizz mainnly :L

Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
chocolate <3

How many people texted you today?
1

Do you know anyone who is pregnant?
nope

Do you have any hickies?
nope

Looking back, did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
yeah but thats life.

Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?
i keep them 4 a bit then let go after a while.

Could you ever be friends again with someone that broke your heart?
I ges so .

Who was the last person you had an argument with?
do u really want 2 no.

Can you roll your tongue?
hehe yep

What are you listening to?
u asked this b4 Sixx: A.M. - Pray for Me yes i like this song

Do you like scented candles?
they make me sneez but i like them :D

Did you have a good birthday last year?
yes

Where are you going on vacation next?
i dont no yet but summer time

Have you kissed anyone in the past 48 hours?
nope

Do you like your first name?
hannah is coman i prefer my midle name lowen :]

Do you have any siblings?
1 brother that isnt actually my brother but a mate heeh

Did you cry today?
yep

What were you doing an hour ago?
reading blogs and drinking my lager

What is the weather like today?
its wrexham its cold

Do you think it would be more fun to model or to shoot the photographs?
both i wouldnt b able 2 pick

Are you younger than 21?
yep

Do you have feelings for anyone?
yes toby

Do you know what you're going to put as the subject of this?
yes im going 2 put"i seen this question thing thought id have a go"

What is the lowest grade you have right now?
erm a e or a d but its yr so

How often do you buy new makeup?
not very

Do you like the 'new' MySpace?
I dont have myspace

Are you sick or becoming sick?
very

How often do you say 'lol' in a computer or text conversation?
a few times

What does your mom say about the pictures on your MySpace?
i dont have myspace

Any feelings for anyone?
yes

Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
well i hope so

Do you believe in kissing when you're not together yet?
no not at all i dont roll that way

some pics

this poem is epic

as i was looking throu blogs i found this one girl from new york she wrote stuff i tottley got any ho as i was looking at her stuff i found this poem and loved it so here it is
You
You can make me laugh on my worst day
You remind why I have to watch what I say
You are the reason I smile
You are the one I hope will be here for a while
You are the one I want and no one can change it
You are my everything
You are amazing
so ye thats the poem byeeee x

days like this is the days i wish i was dead

happy easter 2 start of with :)
i hope every 1 likes choc and had tos of it:)
i got up at 2pm (yes late nights long lie ins hehe)
in bath by 2:30
out of bath at 5:30 hehe long baths are epic
what i hate bout days like this is it starts out epic then i some how get very low
then start crying then i tend 2 go 2 deep in2 thought and some more crying
and the person i thought id talk 2 to try get rid of my thoughts isnt online :(
so i end up reeeaaalllllyyyy down and wonder where did i start goin down hill?
anser is i have no idea
im also in my grannys so i have non of my choc from easter with me so i cant comfort eat on choc so i sit here wondering when will my juliet come bk 2 me ,how will i ever b good enoff for her,how can i smile and make this mood go away
buzz said its my hormones well if so god mine must b fucked up cus i go like this most days well exsept one monday......
but u dont need 2 no why hehe
i havent done any home work yet i keep procrastanating
im obese and wish i could just fall asleep one night and wake up and b the size 12/14 i should b or skinneyer
well nights x

lisen up peeps

im not copying im just trying 2 wright all this down in 1 place
my pandoras box or as im going 2 call it my moning sesion
here gouse
i wish i was thiner
i wish i was pritty
i wish i could sing and not make every beg for me to shut up
i wish i didnt have emotions
i wish had a life
i wish i could see what people see in me
i wish i could run and not look stupid
i wish i could dance
i wish i could act and people belive it
i would do any thing for her bad times to go away
i wish i could stop heartbrake
i wish i could writte poems to tell you what i mean when i say i love you
i wish i could play piano and play you a song
i wish i didnt over react to everything
i wish i never used a cover
i wish i could be myself 24/7
i wish my folkes new i was bi
i wish i new how to b a good girl friend
i wish i didnt cry every other night
i wish i didnt hurt you
i wish i could take it all back
i wish i wasnt soppy
i wish i was organised
i wish i could spell
i wish i was brainy
i wish i didnt speek my mind
i wish i didnt have a short fuse
i wish i wasnt a flirt
i wish i could do my work on time
i wish we were all friends like we were befor
i wish i new who my mates are
i wish i could sleep not stay up and think
i wish i didnt get down as esely
i wish i smiled more offten
i wish my hair would for once stay nice
i wish i didnt wish really
im really a cow and a bitch inside
i wish i never loved him
i wish he lived closer thou
i wish i didnt speek as loude
i wish i could stop eating
i wish i never had 2 cope with all of this
i wish i never took every ones problems
i wish i didnt "scrape"(with my nails) my arm as offten
i wish i could die with out the pain

well thats my moning sesion over i gess
byeeeeeeeeee toby <3 xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I want never gets

I have had some low times resently
and high times
mainly low
when I don't no what to do . What do I do? It dousent make sens I no but I wish it did
the tears are runing fast and constant and were do I turn to hide ? I have written a letter to my folks saying I'm bi but I can't bring my self to leave it on the stairs for them , when I don't want to b on earth what's the point telling them?
Hiding is not my strong point I'm to fat not to be seen to nosey to hide in darkness where do I go ?
Some song quotes
good times will never last
-greenday
but I'm a creep I'm a weirdo what the he'll am I doing here I don't belong here
-raidiohead

how can I help u if u don't tell me what's up !!
Bye x

:$:$:$::$:$:$:$:$

toby<3
had a gd time 2 day
and so many blushes i ended up looking like an ompaloompa gone rong lol
i ad a ton of quotes from 2 day but i cant remeber them so il leave this 1
“A Hug Is Two Hearts Wrapped In Arms”
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeexxxxxx
ps toby an rose rock ;p xxxxxxxxxxx

quotes=fail

no words 2 discribe it how i feel at mo
i had a fab time in london
tierd 2 day
toby :$ what can i say
right i said this song reminded me of some ppl see if u can gess who
mamma im a big girl now
"Don't contradict me!
Don't disobey me!
Don't even think about going to that audition!
please!?
no!
mother!?
stop...
stop telling me what to do-o
don't...don't treat me like a child of two-o
no...
I know that you want what's best
please...but mother please....
give it a rest!
(3x)stop, don't, no!please...
mama, I'm a big girl now!
Once upon a time when I was just a kid
You never let me do just what the older kids did
But lose that laundry list of what you won't allow
cause mama, I'm a big girl now! (Oh, Tracy!)
Once upon a time I used to play with toys...
But now I'd rather play around with teenage boys
So if I get a hicky please don't, have a cow!
cause mama, I'm a big girl now!
Ma, I gotta tell you that without a doubt
I got my best dancing lessons from yo-ou
You're the one who taught me how to twist and shout
Because you shout non-stop,
and you're so twisted to-oooooo
Once I used to fidget cause I just sat home
But now I'm just like Gidget, and I gotta get to Rome
So say arrividicci, toodle-loo, and ciao!
cause mama I'm a big girl now!
oooo
(3x)stop, don't, no!please...mama,
I'm a big girl now!
hey mama....
say mama...
Once upon a time I was a shy young thing
Could barely walk and talk so much as dance and sing
But let me hit that stage I wanna take my bow...
cause mama, I'm a big girl now!
OOOOO!Once upon a time I used to dress up Ken
But now that I'm a woman I like...bigger men
And I don't need a barbie doll to show me how
cause mama I'm a big girl now!
OOOOOma,
you always taught me what was right from wrong
and now I just wanna give it a try
Mama, I'm been in a nest for far to long!
So please give a push and mama watch me fly!
Watch me fly!
hey mama....
say mama...
One day I will meet a man you won't condemn
And we will have some kids and you can torture them
But let me be a star before I take that vow!
Cause mama, I'm a big girl now
OOOMama, I'm a big girl now
Hey, ya, ya, ya, yay
Mama...I'm a big girl
...oo, such a big big girl
I'm a big girl...now...oooo
(2x)(stop don't no please)
mama, I'm a big girl now!"
tanks sofiah had a fab evning 2 day and glad i can help u :}
love byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeexx

LONDON IN THE MORNING

im all packed said my goodbyes (god tat sounds like big brother when davina says"pack your bags say your goodbyes im coming 2 get you" lol) im going 2 miss all my mates :'(
im going 2 miss steven :'(
but most of all im going 2 miss wrexham evan thou its chav central its been my home sins i was born :(
well byee eeeee til thursday xxxxx

well

erm first of all
IM GOING 2 LONDON SOON AAAAAAA XD
tt was cool we r having a new dance teacher so YES the old 1 made us march alot ¬¬
steven :) he is now my brother :L
and he makes me feel so much better bout my self and as i said 2 mate the other day "he makes me blush 4 two day ":$
tbf i love the lads in my life they mean a lot 2 me :)
and loving tis song two out of three eint bad <3
so here ar the words 4 it :)
"Baby we can talk all night
But that ain't gettin us nowhere
I told you everything I possibly can
There's nothing left inside of here
And maybe you can cry all night
But that'll never change the way I feel
The snow is really piling up outside
I wish you wouldn't make me leave here
I poured it on and I poured it out
I tried to show you just how much I care
I'm tired of words and I'm too hoarse to shout
But you've been cold to me so longI
'm crying icicles instead of tears
And all I can doIs keep on telling you
I want you (I want you)
I need you (I need you)
But-there ain't no way I'm ever gonna love you
Now don't be sad (Don't be sad)'
Cause two out of three ain't bad
Now don't be sad (Cause)
'Cause two out of three ain't bad
You'll never find your gold on a sandy beach
You'll never drill for oil on a city street
I know you're looking for a ruby in a mountain of rocks
But there ain't no Coup de Ville
Hiding at the bottom of a Cracker Jack box
I can't lieI can't tell you that I'm something I'm not
No matter how I tryI'll never be able
To give you something
Something that I just haven't got
There's only one girl that I will ever love
And that was so many years ago
And though I know I'll never get her out of my heart
She never loved me back
Ooh I know
I remember how she left me on a stormy night
She kissed me and got out of our bed
And though I pleaded and I begged her not to walk out that door
She packed her bags and turned right awayAnd she kept on telling me
She kept on telling me
She kept on telling me
I want you (I want you
)I need you (I need you)
But there ain't no way I'm ever gonna love you
Now don't be sad (Don't be sad)
'Cause two out of three ain't bad
I want you (I want you)
I need you (I need you)
But there ain't no way I'm ever gonna love you
Now don't be sad (Don't be sad)
'Cause two out of three ain't bad
Now don't be sad (Don't)'
Cause two out of three ain't bad
Baby we can talk all night
But that ain't getting us nowhere "
well byeeeeeeee x

:@:@:@::@:@:@

she had no right 2 be like that !!!!!
and her exscuse was pethetic!!! :@
well thank u all who agree wv me about that
guns n roses <3
drama lol we had 2 do a monalog about some rubbish for 7mins and i ended up on msn nudgeing my mate jade llol
well i dont no what 2 right so i shall leave it with this
""Don't forget your memories,
they will keep you sane
.Don't cry alone tonight
,save it for another day
.Don't keep it to yourself ,
share it with a friend.
I promise you one day
you will love again. "
that was given 2 me by a very close friend of mine love youuuuu
well byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeexx

arrrgh

god did eny1 els want 2 slap bethan b 2 day??
¬¬ shes really pushing it now
any hoooo
im really excited 2 day for london trip on the 8th ><
i really confused now why am i lisening 2 god help the outcasts??
any how heres the Lyrics for it :)
Esmeralda
I don't know if You can hear me
Or if You're even there
I don't know if You would listen
To a gypsie's prayer
Yes, I know I'm just an outcast
I shouldn't speak to youStill
I see Your face and wonder...
Were You once an outcast too?
God help the outcasts
Hungry from birth
Show them the mercy
They don't find on earth
God help my people
We look to You still
God help the outcasts
Or nobody will
Parishioners
I ask for wealth
I ask for fame
I ask for glory to shine on my name
I ask for love
I can posess
I ask for God and His angels to bless me
Esmeralda
I ask for nothing
I can get by
But I know so many
Less lucky than I
Please help my people
The poor and downtrod
I thought we all were
The children of God
God help the outcasts
Children of God
any way thats them :)
so nervers for gcese s and le ginger has more than me *gulp*
any way byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee x

soooorrrrrryyyyyyy :)

first sorry for not blogging over the weekend
right saterday........
in theatertrain i nearly fell on my convers :$ but i did fall
was completly hyper
and then got home got confused about EVEYTHING but that might b because im female lol
and sunday.............
it was a slooow morning zzzzz with scrap heep chalennge on the tv because me and dad are cool
did my homework and went 2 town with le ginger,bug,plum and salad (cus i cant think of a namee for her lol)and drank looooaaaaddds of cheap lemonade lol and tones of pics :)
got new tops ant bottoms of the internet
and monday.........
happy saint davids day /'dafydds day:)
we had a non uniform day wich was cool
and a test last lesson aaaaaa in cemeg 2 aaaaaa
cemeg is 1 of my worse lessons but at least i had busness with le ginger woo
test i stressed so much for was ok then the last page AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i was dooomed
then after school i had a nice long hug with salad :)
and a walk with le ginger and her baban
and now i feel less confused than i was befor and i dont no why
uch sometimes id rather be male seems simpler
todays quote
"there boxer buddies ":L
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeex

confused.com

dear confused.com,

i have noticed your website douse not do as it said in its name so im still confused

doodle drama doodle

had a drama asesmant 2 day and my group rocked!!!
i have been doodleing all day!!eyes i love 2 draw them they are my hobbie
i miss steven :( he is still so sweet and romantic with me and i miss that soooo much
well i cba typing 2 night so byeeeeeee x

ok i need new names for thease things...

has a new obsesion with the band Blink 182
<3<3 love them . my laptop needs to go 2 the shop because the cd/dvd thing isnt working :(
i have le ginges story and loved it has another fictional dude 2 my list *Guy * :} i loved it all and at parts some of le gingers personalyty came throu wich was grate :P
im going 2 london soon less than 2 weeks !! so exsited !!!!!!
quotes :)
"If I Can Only Be With You In My Dreams, Then Let Me Sleep forever "
"Never a lip is curved with pain that can't be kissed into smiles again."
~ Bret Harte
"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams."
"Falling in love is the best way to kill your heart, because then its not yours anymore"
"and just because she comes off strong doesn`t mean she didn`t fall asleep crying and even though acts like nothing is wrong, maby just maby she`s really good at lieing"
well byeeeeeeeeeex

school =/

uch went back to school monday and god how i hate school i have a test next week and some homework :(i have loved seeing my mates againg and been makeing some new 1s :) i dont no what it is but the cornel dousent seem quite right theres always been seacrust and lies behind closed doors among people in the cornel but now it seems like the odd feeling of lies and wispers has been magnified and now then atmosphere seems unberable 2 me for more than 15 mins
i missed how we all used 2 be with less secrets and no lies just.............fun
o well time 2 move on again :/
quote times:-
"you and me is friends
you smile, i smile
you hurt, i hurt
you cry ,i cry
you jump of a bridge
im going 2 mis your e-mails"
lol and another:-
"robbins cool
no hes not which lad do u no that looks good in tights ?? and red and green they dont mix
they do at x mass and he looks better than others cus hes cool but not as cool as the green giant ,hulk :L"
lol a confo with a mate :)
well thats it 4 now byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeex

sorry !!

sorry people i have had such a busy time and had no time for blogging well im here now so whats happend over the last few days......
*seen wolfman with le ginger
*me and my ex have been getting on (talken more)and hes been really sweet with me (blushes)
*did a show were bug ,mum and nana came 2 wach it was awsom
*been to tt(drama group for thouse who dont no) and had a blast
*strugeld what 2 pic to were 2 a meal
*ended up with a fab top and got lodes of complements of my convers :)
*had a good debate about girls and boys in frankies and bennies with my felow tt people
*dance mat in ten pin bowling
*my convers walked me 2 my pick up point (linked arms)and was late for his lift by waiting with me but conf was acward and he complymented me a bit more :D
*but when we left i said "you didnt have 2 stay you no" he said "its ok thats what mates are for" we shook hands and bowed 2 my hand so no hug :(
i wish i could stop liking him but i cant and my ex keeps saying "god your sexy and your beautiful"and when i said my lip was bleeding he said "hug*kiss*" i dont no what 2 say any more and when i say bye he says "night beautiful xxx" wich makes me feel special and nice (if you havent gessed yet im soppy)
(8) i dont no what 2 do any more
i dont no what to say anymore
all i no is i cant have you
but unlike the others
i wont move(8)
yes i no my mates are saying "GET OVER HIM ITS BEEN OVER A WEEK!!!!" but i cant
well thats enoff for 2night
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeex

............soooooo.........

today zzzzzzzzzzzz
had a bath auntie came 4 tea and then went 2 wacht my old drama groops show (bitesize) t was fb every one has changed in a yr !! every one was grate!!! loved it .but forgot how cold it could get there brrrrrrrrr.im happy 2 see them again but sad because i miss them so much!! i need 2 bye more books i finneshed i feel lost with out a book :s
quote time for how i feel.......
"I want to feel your touch on my skin,I want to hear your voice whisper in my ear , I want you to love me like i loved you, I want you to hurt like ive been hurting.I wish fairytales were true because you would have saved my heart , not broke it in two"
but i also feel
"im holding on 2 a dream that wont come true"
but also.........
"Silence is golden; Duct tape is SILVER"
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeex

to day was sllloooowwwweeerrrr than a snnnnaaaaiiiiiillllll

uch i have had such a long day zzzzz
i have read lodesof storys on fanfiction and my m8s le gingers first chapter i was memorized with it i cant wait 2 read the rest of her story (if she lets me lol)
i have a pancake 4 pancake day is wife 2 (its like a valentine but 4 pancake day ;P) me and my 3 wifes are meeting up in moroco (were we will meet in a spacious cooker and steel gaby) wife 1 will bring a lemon wife 2 will bring the eggs wife 3 will bring milk and i will bring the flower we wont need suger it will b sweet enoff ;) well i planed 2 go to see the wereman with le ginger 2moz but we havent planed any time :L
lol my dad creases me with jokes of the winter olipics lol
night all byeeeeex

what a day ! but i hated it too

happy Valentine's day!!! if they love you back
town with wife 3,le ginger and plum :)was epic" wife do u need 2 go to the toilet??""why yes i do" *stalks fit lads/girls*lol today we went bowling with a vouture chris gave up (he looked like an esckimo lol) and jimmy creased times i have a car on my back lol its lightning from cars ;)
aparently i flirt with every 1 and sit slutty :sand aparently i get deepressed quick :s if it wasnt for plum i would still be trying 2 buy a shirt (mens shirts confuse me)and the kids oom in mcdonalds is awsom!!!!! my convers kept asking me if i was ok i said i was then he just loggs off with out a bye :'(
no quotes 2 day s byeee x

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr :'(

2day was reaallly hard :'( a rehersal with my converse and yeah ACWARD!!!
i got up at 8 (an extra houre compered 2 normal)but i was still shatterd because i didnt go 2 bed till 2am (silly me)and then my granny couldnt find the forum studio theater so i was late :\
but as girlfriend (part shamefully not really one ) i have a spotty fake fur cought that smells like an old people's home,and im nervous because i couldnt say any of my lines (one of the reasons is i cant act 2 things at a time and i was acting like i was fine and as my part)the forum studio is tichyso projection isn't hard .some one burnt there jacket on the heater lol.i just cant cover up how i feel any more and getting nervous for how my perants will take my news (when i tell them),the show ,and if i can hold my self 2gether.he's all i think aot and i cant kick him out of my head hes staying and not buging !!(remebers confo with buzz)
i dont thnk i would have lasted this long with out crying if it wasnt for the song Evanescence - Lithium
so hears a link for it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FlpCsojBufQ
:'\ byeeeeeee

why do i bother

today i found out who my m8s are and who my all time best friens are:)
because she wanted a nick name in this blog il put her in sooo hey 2 my 3 wife ;)
curt tuck just tould my convers i liked him more than a mate and he said
"I'd just like to sit back and take on GCSE's for now.
im sorry"
and that he's nown for agggeeesss:$ and he asked why i didnt go 2 him and i said i was shy then he said
"it's ok
you know me
liek a father
big brother
lover
friend
and younger sister"
im confused and i dont no what 2 say and im still upsett from my m8 2day when she insulted me well byeee x

mmmmmm

right my convers was dancing wv some lad :( and i have been down all day for all diverent things which im not going 2 to say out loude .i have been annoying my mates with dipressing quotes but i was just showing them 2 them!! and my mate curt tuck is going 2 tell my convers i like them and see what happens (nervous face)life gouse on and i need 2 keep moving with it :) easer 2 sayy than puting it into practice :(
"i understand yo dont like me,
i know you wont ever,
i feel the pain i can only feel,
i see you love another,
i wish you could see my tears,
that everyone els sees "
byeeeeeeeee x

:'(

went 2 rebz looooaaaadds of fun,fit lads and fit girls (nomnom)my friend was late meeting me :'(,other friend marmalade got upsett because of a supid lads ,and my awsom convers was flirting with a lad right next to me :( yes he's bi but he looked veeeeerrrrrryyy fit last night and all my mates agree with that i couldent flirt with him and my mate nearly tould him i liked him!!! but every time we did speek i got butterflyse in my tummy :$ i miss him
" if i die befor i wake,atleast in heaven i can skate ,but right here on earth i can do jack ,without the man up on my back"
byeeeeeee x

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa

2night im going 2 rebz and really nervous about going ,maby because il see my awsom converse ;) or maby because i dont know what to exspect,and because im doing a show (with theater train) on the 18 and my convers are in that too!! but im also worry my mum and dad will say no for me going last moment!! i hope not because i cant wait to go and see all my friends i havent seen in aaaaaaaaaggggggggggeeeeeeessss :}
to be fair my awsom m8 (errmmmm thinking of name 2 call her) le ginger ;) makes me giggle sooooo much !! in busness and cemeg i sit next 2 her and we boothed creased when are cemeg teacher said "ok we will right that in cemeg speek" :D
my life just couldn't be the same if i wasnt friends with(prossesing name for her) bug :) she has helped me with soooooooo much resently
well i got 2 get ready for rebs (which dousent start till 6 but i have 2 get a bath ,hair ,make up meet friend and say hey 2 my dad )well byeeeeeeee x

well.............

well my first post :} for any one who reads this bewarned i cant spell very well :$ this blog was created after a looooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnng time of thinking and a push from my m8 (no names will be revealed) so by my name you can tell i like books (paranormal prefebly) twilight ,true blood,evermore,hush hush ect ect.shoes is a nick name for boys so if i say a fit emo lad i liked hes b a pair of awsom black converse :) and music is my life i cant go a day with out it i love metel,rock,indi,alternatif ect and me well im me but i wouldent be the same with out my friends . i have a group of m8s in the cornel (its an alcove really, in science and its a pucky green lliw )yes i speek welsh 2 :) wednesday im going 2 rebz and a lad i like is going 2 be there (hes my awsom converse )and his best m8 is 1 of mine and she nose i like him and she tould me hes going 2 be on the pull so god help me b his type . i love quotes 2 a quotation i adore is;
"a girl asked a guyif she was pretty,
he said no
she asked him if he wanted her,
he said no
she asked him if she left would he cry ,
he said no
she turned to leave
he grabed her arm and said,
your not pretty your beautiful,i dont want you i need you and i wouldnt cry if you left i would die !"
well thats it for now byeeeeee x