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dear confused.com,

i have noticed your website douse not do as it said in its name so im still confused

doodle drama doodle

had a drama asesmant 2 day and my group rocked!!!
i have been doodleing all day!!eyes i love 2 draw them they are my hobbie
i miss steven :( he is still so sweet and romantic with me and i miss that soooo much
well i cba typing 2 night so byeeeeeee x

ok i need new names for thease things...

has a new obsesion with the band Blink 182
<3<3 love them . my laptop needs to go 2 the shop because the cd/dvd thing isnt working :(
i have le ginges story and loved it has another fictional dude 2 my list *Guy * :} i loved it all and at parts some of le gingers personalyty came throu wich was grate :P
im going 2 london soon less than 2 weeks !! so exsited !!!!!!
quotes :)
"If I Can Only Be With You In My Dreams, Then Let Me Sleep forever "
"Never a lip is curved with pain that can't be kissed into smiles again."
~ Bret Harte
"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams."
"Falling in love is the best way to kill your heart, because then its not yours anymore"
"and just because she comes off strong doesn`t mean she didn`t fall asleep crying and even though acts like nothing is wrong, maby just maby she`s really good at lieing"
well byeeeeeeeeeex

school =/

uch went back to school monday and god how i hate school i have a test next week and some homework :(i have loved seeing my mates againg and been makeing some new 1s :) i dont no what it is but the cornel dousent seem quite right theres always been seacrust and lies behind closed doors among people in the cornel but now it seems like the odd feeling of lies and wispers has been magnified and now then atmosphere seems unberable 2 me for more than 15 mins
i missed how we all used 2 be with less secrets and no lies just.............fun
o well time 2 move on again :/
quote times:-
"you and me is friends
you smile, i smile
you hurt, i hurt
you cry ,i cry
you jump of a bridge
im going 2 mis your e-mails"
lol and another:-
"robbins cool
no hes not which lad do u no that looks good in tights ?? and red and green they dont mix
they do at x mass and he looks better than others cus hes cool but not as cool as the green giant ,hulk :L"
lol a confo with a mate :)
well thats it 4 now byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeex

sorry !!

sorry people i have had such a busy time and had no time for blogging well im here now so whats happend over the last few days......
*seen wolfman with le ginger
*me and my ex have been getting on (talken more)and hes been really sweet with me (blushes)
*did a show were bug ,mum and nana came 2 wach it was awsom
*been to tt(drama group for thouse who dont no) and had a blast
*strugeld what 2 pic to were 2 a meal
*ended up with a fab top and got lodes of complements of my convers :)
*had a good debate about girls and boys in frankies and bennies with my felow tt people
*dance mat in ten pin bowling
*my convers walked me 2 my pick up point (linked arms)and was late for his lift by waiting with me but conf was acward and he complymented me a bit more :D
*but when we left i said "you didnt have 2 stay you no" he said "its ok thats what mates are for" we shook hands and bowed 2 my hand so no hug :(
i wish i could stop liking him but i cant and my ex keeps saying "god your sexy and your beautiful"and when i said my lip was bleeding he said "hug*kiss*" i dont no what 2 say any more and when i say bye he says "night beautiful xxx" wich makes me feel special and nice (if you havent gessed yet im soppy)
(8) i dont no what 2 do any more
i dont no what to say anymore
all i no is i cant have you
but unlike the others
i wont move(8)
yes i no my mates are saying "GET OVER HIM ITS BEEN OVER A WEEK!!!!" but i cant
well thats enoff for 2night
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeex

............soooooo.........

today zzzzzzzzzzzz
had a bath auntie came 4 tea and then went 2 wacht my old drama groops show (bitesize) t was fb every one has changed in a yr !! every one was grate!!! loved it .but forgot how cold it could get there brrrrrrrrr.im happy 2 see them again but sad because i miss them so much!! i need 2 bye more books i finneshed i feel lost with out a book :s
quote time for how i feel.......
"I want to feel your touch on my skin,I want to hear your voice whisper in my ear , I want you to love me like i loved you, I want you to hurt like ive been hurting.I wish fairytales were true because you would have saved my heart , not broke it in two"
but i also feel
"im holding on 2 a dream that wont come true"
but also.........
"Silence is golden; Duct tape is SILVER"
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeex

to day was sllloooowwwweeerrrr than a snnnnaaaaiiiiiillllll

uch i have had such a long day zzzzz
i have read lodesof storys on fanfiction and my m8s le gingers first chapter i was memorized with it i cant wait 2 read the rest of her story (if she lets me lol)
i have a pancake 4 pancake day is wife 2 (its like a valentine but 4 pancake day ;P) me and my 3 wifes are meeting up in moroco (were we will meet in a spacious cooker and steel gaby) wife 1 will bring a lemon wife 2 will bring the eggs wife 3 will bring milk and i will bring the flower we wont need suger it will b sweet enoff ;) well i planed 2 go to see the wereman with le ginger 2moz but we havent planed any time :L
lol my dad creases me with jokes of the winter olipics lol
night all byeeeeex

what a day ! but i hated it too

happy Valentine's day!!! if they love you back
town with wife 3,le ginger and plum :)was epic" wife do u need 2 go to the toilet??""why yes i do" *stalks fit lads/girls*lol today we went bowling with a vouture chris gave up (he looked like an esckimo lol) and jimmy creased times i have a car on my back lol its lightning from cars ;)
aparently i flirt with every 1 and sit slutty :sand aparently i get deepressed quick :s if it wasnt for plum i would still be trying 2 buy a shirt (mens shirts confuse me)and the kids oom in mcdonalds is awsom!!!!! my convers kept asking me if i was ok i said i was then he just loggs off with out a bye :'(
no quotes 2 day s byeee x

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr :'(

2day was reaallly hard :'( a rehersal with my converse and yeah ACWARD!!!
i got up at 8 (an extra houre compered 2 normal)but i was still shatterd because i didnt go 2 bed till 2am (silly me)and then my granny couldnt find the forum studio theater so i was late :\
but as girlfriend (part shamefully not really one ) i have a spotty fake fur cought that smells like an old people's home,and im nervous because i couldnt say any of my lines (one of the reasons is i cant act 2 things at a time and i was acting like i was fine and as my part)the forum studio is tichyso projection isn't hard .some one burnt there jacket on the heater lol.i just cant cover up how i feel any more and getting nervous for how my perants will take my news (when i tell them),the show ,and if i can hold my self 2gether.he's all i think aot and i cant kick him out of my head hes staying and not buging !!(remebers confo with buzz)
i dont thnk i would have lasted this long with out crying if it wasnt for the song Evanescence - Lithium
so hears a link for it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FlpCsojBufQ
:'\ byeeeeeee

why do i bother

today i found out who my m8s are and who my all time best friens are:)
because she wanted a nick name in this blog il put her in sooo hey 2 my 3 wife ;)
curt tuck just tould my convers i liked him more than a mate and he said
"I'd just like to sit back and take on GCSE's for now.
im sorry"
and that he's nown for agggeeesss:$ and he asked why i didnt go 2 him and i said i was shy then he said
"it's ok
you know me
liek a father
big brother
lover
friend
and younger sister"
im confused and i dont no what 2 say and im still upsett from my m8 2day when she insulted me well byeee x

mmmmmm

right my convers was dancing wv some lad :( and i have been down all day for all diverent things which im not going 2 to say out loude .i have been annoying my mates with dipressing quotes but i was just showing them 2 them!! and my mate curt tuck is going 2 tell my convers i like them and see what happens (nervous face)life gouse on and i need 2 keep moving with it :) easer 2 sayy than puting it into practice :(
"i understand yo dont like me,
i know you wont ever,
i feel the pain i can only feel,
i see you love another,
i wish you could see my tears,
that everyone els sees "
byeeeeeeeee x

:'(

went 2 rebz looooaaaadds of fun,fit lads and fit girls (nomnom)my friend was late meeting me :'(,other friend marmalade got upsett because of a supid lads ,and my awsom convers was flirting with a lad right next to me :( yes he's bi but he looked veeeeerrrrrryyy fit last night and all my mates agree with that i couldent flirt with him and my mate nearly tould him i liked him!!! but every time we did speek i got butterflyse in my tummy :$ i miss him
" if i die befor i wake,atleast in heaven i can skate ,but right here on earth i can do jack ,without the man up on my back"
byeeeeeee x

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa

2night im going 2 rebz and really nervous about going ,maby because il see my awsom converse ;) or maby because i dont know what to exspect,and because im doing a show (with theater train) on the 18 and my convers are in that too!! but im also worry my mum and dad will say no for me going last moment!! i hope not because i cant wait to go and see all my friends i havent seen in aaaaaaaaaggggggggggeeeeeeessss :}
to be fair my awsom m8 (errmmmm thinking of name 2 call her) le ginger ;) makes me giggle sooooo much !! in busness and cemeg i sit next 2 her and we boothed creased when are cemeg teacher said "ok we will right that in cemeg speek" :D
my life just couldn't be the same if i wasnt friends with(prossesing name for her) bug :) she has helped me with soooooooo much resently
well i got 2 get ready for rebs (which dousent start till 6 but i have 2 get a bath ,hair ,make up meet friend and say hey 2 my dad )well byeeeeeeee x

well.............

well my first post :} for any one who reads this bewarned i cant spell very well :$ this blog was created after a looooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnng time of thinking and a push from my m8 (no names will be revealed) so by my name you can tell i like books (paranormal prefebly) twilight ,true blood,evermore,hush hush ect ect.shoes is a nick name for boys so if i say a fit emo lad i liked hes b a pair of awsom black converse :) and music is my life i cant go a day with out it i love metel,rock,indi,alternatif ect and me well im me but i wouldent be the same with out my friends . i have a group of m8s in the cornel (its an alcove really, in science and its a pucky green lliw )yes i speek welsh 2 :) wednesday im going 2 rebz and a lad i like is going 2 be there (hes my awsom converse )and his best m8 is 1 of mine and she nose i like him and she tould me hes going 2 be on the pull so god help me b his type . i love quotes 2 a quotation i adore is;
"a girl asked a guyif she was pretty,
he said no
she asked him if he wanted her,
he said no
she asked him if she left would he cry ,
he said no
she turned to leave
he grabed her arm and said,
your not pretty your beautiful,i dont want you i need you and i wouldnt cry if you left i would die !"
well thats it for now byeeeeee x