lisen up peeps

im not copying im just trying 2 wright all this down in 1 place
my pandoras box or as im going 2 call it my moning sesion
here gouse
i wish i was thiner
i wish i was pritty
i wish i could sing and not make every beg for me to shut up
i wish i didnt have emotions
i wish had a life
i wish i could see what people see in me
i wish i could run and not look stupid
i wish i could dance
i wish i could act and people belive it
i would do any thing for her bad times to go away
i wish i could stop heartbrake
i wish i could writte poems to tell you what i mean when i say i love you
i wish i could play piano and play you a song
i wish i didnt over react to everything
i wish i never used a cover
i wish i could be myself 24/7
i wish my folkes new i was bi
i wish i new how to b a good girl friend
i wish i didnt cry every other night
i wish i didnt hurt you
i wish i could take it all back
i wish i wasnt soppy
i wish i was organised
i wish i could spell
i wish i was brainy
i wish i didnt speek my mind
i wish i didnt have a short fuse
i wish i wasnt a flirt
i wish i could do my work on time
i wish we were all friends like we were befor
i wish i new who my mates are
i wish i could sleep not stay up and think
i wish i didnt get down as esely
i wish i smiled more offten
i wish my hair would for once stay nice
i wish i didnt wish really
im really a cow and a bitch inside
i wish i never loved him
i wish he lived closer thou
i wish i didnt speek as loude
i wish i could stop eating
i wish i never had 2 cope with all of this
i wish i never took every ones problems
i wish i didnt "scrape"(with my nails) my arm as offten
i wish i could die with out the pain

well thats my moning sesion over i gess
byeeeeeeeeee toby <3 xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I want never gets

I have had some low times resently
and high times
mainly low
when I don't no what to do . What do I do? It dousent make sens I no but I wish it did
the tears are runing fast and constant and were do I turn to hide ? I have written a letter to my folks saying I'm bi but I can't bring my self to leave it on the stairs for them , when I don't want to b on earth what's the point telling them?
Hiding is not my strong point I'm to fat not to be seen to nosey to hide in darkness where do I go ?
Some song quotes
good times will never last
-greenday
but I'm a creep I'm a weirdo what the he'll am I doing here I don't belong here
-raidiohead

how can I help u if u don't tell me what's up !!
Bye x

:$:$:$::$:$:$:$:$

toby<3
had a gd time 2 day
and so many blushes i ended up looking like an ompaloompa gone rong lol
i ad a ton of quotes from 2 day but i cant remeber them so il leave this 1
“A Hug Is Two Hearts Wrapped In Arms”
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeexxxxxx
ps toby an rose rock ;p xxxxxxxxxxx

quotes=fail

no words 2 discribe it how i feel at mo
i had a fab time in london
tierd 2 day
toby :$ what can i say
right i said this song reminded me of some ppl see if u can gess who
mamma im a big girl now
"Don't contradict me!
Don't disobey me!
Don't even think about going to that audition!
please!?
no!
mother!?
stop...
stop telling me what to do-o
don't...don't treat me like a child of two-o
no...
I know that you want what's best
please...but mother please....
give it a rest!
(3x)stop, don't, no!please...
mama, I'm a big girl now!
Once upon a time when I was just a kid
You never let me do just what the older kids did
But lose that laundry list of what you won't allow
cause mama, I'm a big girl now! (Oh, Tracy!)
Once upon a time I used to play with toys...
But now I'd rather play around with teenage boys
So if I get a hicky please don't, have a cow!
cause mama, I'm a big girl now!
Ma, I gotta tell you that without a doubt
I got my best dancing lessons from yo-ou
You're the one who taught me how to twist and shout
Because you shout non-stop,
and you're so twisted to-oooooo
Once I used to fidget cause I just sat home
But now I'm just like Gidget, and I gotta get to Rome
So say arrividicci, toodle-loo, and ciao!
cause mama I'm a big girl now!
oooo
(3x)stop, don't, no!please...mama,
I'm a big girl now!
hey mama....
say mama...
Once upon a time I was a shy young thing
Could barely walk and talk so much as dance and sing
But let me hit that stage I wanna take my bow...
cause mama, I'm a big girl now!
OOOOO!Once upon a time I used to dress up Ken
But now that I'm a woman I like...bigger men
And I don't need a barbie doll to show me how
cause mama I'm a big girl now!
OOOOOma,
you always taught me what was right from wrong
and now I just wanna give it a try
Mama, I'm been in a nest for far to long!
So please give a push and mama watch me fly!
Watch me fly!
hey mama....
say mama...
One day I will meet a man you won't condemn
And we will have some kids and you can torture them
But let me be a star before I take that vow!
Cause mama, I'm a big girl now
OOOMama, I'm a big girl now
Hey, ya, ya, ya, yay
Mama...I'm a big girl
...oo, such a big big girl
I'm a big girl...now...oooo
(2x)(stop don't no please)
mama, I'm a big girl now!"
tanks sofiah had a fab evning 2 day and glad i can help u :}
love byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeexx

LONDON IN THE MORNING

im all packed said my goodbyes (god tat sounds like big brother when davina says"pack your bags say your goodbyes im coming 2 get you" lol) im going 2 miss all my mates :'(
im going 2 miss steven :'(
but most of all im going 2 miss wrexham evan thou its chav central its been my home sins i was born :(
well byee eeeee til thursday xxxxx

well

erm first of all
IM GOING 2 LONDON SOON AAAAAAA XD
tt was cool we r having a new dance teacher so YES the old 1 made us march alot ¬¬
steven :) he is now my brother :L
and he makes me feel so much better bout my self and as i said 2 mate the other day "he makes me blush 4 two day ":$
tbf i love the lads in my life they mean a lot 2 me :)
and loving tis song two out of three eint bad <3
so here ar the words 4 it :)
"Baby we can talk all night
But that ain't gettin us nowhere
I told you everything I possibly can
There's nothing left inside of here
And maybe you can cry all night
But that'll never change the way I feel
The snow is really piling up outside
I wish you wouldn't make me leave here
I poured it on and I poured it out
I tried to show you just how much I care
I'm tired of words and I'm too hoarse to shout
But you've been cold to me so longI
'm crying icicles instead of tears
And all I can doIs keep on telling you
I want you (I want you)
I need you (I need you)
But-there ain't no way I'm ever gonna love you
Now don't be sad (Don't be sad)'
Cause two out of three ain't bad
Now don't be sad (Cause)
'Cause two out of three ain't bad
You'll never find your gold on a sandy beach
You'll never drill for oil on a city street
I know you're looking for a ruby in a mountain of rocks
But there ain't no Coup de Ville
Hiding at the bottom of a Cracker Jack box
I can't lieI can't tell you that I'm something I'm not
No matter how I tryI'll never be able
To give you something
Something that I just haven't got
There's only one girl that I will ever love
And that was so many years ago
And though I know I'll never get her out of my heart
She never loved me back
Ooh I know
I remember how she left me on a stormy night
She kissed me and got out of our bed
And though I pleaded and I begged her not to walk out that door
She packed her bags and turned right awayAnd she kept on telling me
She kept on telling me
She kept on telling me
I want you (I want you
)I need you (I need you)
But there ain't no way I'm ever gonna love you
Now don't be sad (Don't be sad)
'Cause two out of three ain't bad
I want you (I want you)
I need you (I need you)
But there ain't no way I'm ever gonna love you
Now don't be sad (Don't be sad)
'Cause two out of three ain't bad
Now don't be sad (Don't)'
Cause two out of three ain't bad
Baby we can talk all night
But that ain't getting us nowhere "
well byeeeeeeee x

:@:@:@::@:@:@

she had no right 2 be like that !!!!!
and her exscuse was pethetic!!! :@
well thank u all who agree wv me about that
guns n roses <3
drama lol we had 2 do a monalog about some rubbish for 7mins and i ended up on msn nudgeing my mate jade llol
well i dont no what 2 right so i shall leave it with this
""Don't forget your memories,
they will keep you sane
.Don't cry alone tonight
,save it for another day
.Don't keep it to yourself ,
share it with a friend.
I promise you one day
you will love again. "
that was given 2 me by a very close friend of mine love youuuuu
well byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeexx

arrrgh

god did eny1 els want 2 slap bethan b 2 day??
¬¬ shes really pushing it now
any hoooo
im really excited 2 day for london trip on the 8th ><
i really confused now why am i lisening 2 god help the outcasts??
any how heres the Lyrics for it :)
Esmeralda
I don't know if You can hear me
Or if You're even there
I don't know if You would listen
To a gypsie's prayer
Yes, I know I'm just an outcast
I shouldn't speak to youStill
I see Your face and wonder...
Were You once an outcast too?
God help the outcasts
Hungry from birth
Show them the mercy
They don't find on earth
God help my people
We look to You still
God help the outcasts
Or nobody will
Parishioners
I ask for wealth
I ask for fame
I ask for glory to shine on my name
I ask for love
I can posess
I ask for God and His angels to bless me
Esmeralda
I ask for nothing
I can get by
But I know so many
Less lucky than I
Please help my people
The poor and downtrod
I thought we all were
The children of God
God help the outcasts
Children of God
any way thats them :)
so nervers for gcese s and le ginger has more than me *gulp*
any way byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee x

soooorrrrrryyyyyyy :)

first sorry for not blogging over the weekend
right saterday........
in theatertrain i nearly fell on my convers :$ but i did fall
was completly hyper
and then got home got confused about EVEYTHING but that might b because im female lol
and sunday.............
it was a slooow morning zzzzz with scrap heep chalennge on the tv because me and dad are cool
did my homework and went 2 town with le ginger,bug,plum and salad (cus i cant think of a namee for her lol)and drank looooaaaaddds of cheap lemonade lol and tones of pics :)
got new tops ant bottoms of the internet
and monday.........
happy saint davids day /'dafydds day:)
we had a non uniform day wich was cool
and a test last lesson aaaaaa in cemeg 2 aaaaaa
cemeg is 1 of my worse lessons but at least i had busness with le ginger woo
test i stressed so much for was ok then the last page AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i was dooomed
then after school i had a nice long hug with salad :)
and a walk with le ginger and her baban
and now i feel less confused than i was befor and i dont no why
uch sometimes id rather be male seems simpler
todays quote
"there boxer buddies ":L
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeex