I want never gets

I have had some low times resently
and high times
mainly low
when I don't no what to do . What do I do? It dousent make sens I no but I wish it did
the tears are runing fast and constant and were do I turn to hide ? I have written a letter to my folks saying I'm bi but I can't bring my self to leave it on the stairs for them , when I don't want to b on earth what's the point telling them?
Hiding is not my strong point I'm to fat not to be seen to nosey to hide in darkness where do I go ?
Some song quotes
good times will never last
-greenday
but I'm a creep I'm a weirdo what the he'll am I doing here I don't belong here
-raidiohead

how can I help u if u don't tell me what's up !!
Bye x